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Monday, September 29, 2008

.: salam lebaran dari anakanda :.

Ramadhan hampir tamat.. sedih kan.. kalu pk2 .. ikut plan.. this will be my last Ramadhan in NZ. Twice celebrating Ramadhan here. alhamdulillah.... mmg best sbnrnye.. ape taknye.. cuaca xsepanas Msia.. xla dahaga sgt.. lapar pun kurang la.. boleh selalu berbuka di masjid dgn sisters lain. Tak perlula ingt sbb xleh gi bazar Ramadhan ke, makan masakan ma ke.. it dah mmg sah la sedih kan.. maybe next yr.. kalu dipnjang kan umo.. dapat pose kat Msia.. sedih plak... sbb teringat suasana pose kat NZ.. ah.. tidakkkkk.... yang psti mmg xsbr nk balik..

So Insyaallah.. raya pun kali ke2 la kat sini.. kalu tahun lepas, saya dipertanggungjawapkan utk bt satay.. tahun pun mcm tu pada mulanye.. tapi dgn besar hati saya bagi Imran bt.. I know he can handle it.. sy datang tolong aje.. happy sgt sbnrnye!!! tanggung jawap tu sgtla besar.. bayangkanla 30kg daging.. perghhh...

Sedih sebenarnye ni.. ma n abah thun ni beraya xde sape kat umah.. kakngah sarat mengandung.. doktor xbagi balik trganu.. paln along xjadi plak.. sbb Jaja kena chicken pox..hummm.. xleh bayang la cmne.. mana la ma n abh pnah raya bedua aje..
mmg la ade sedara mara n jiran tetangga.. tapi .. every yr.. mmg ade nye kami adik beradik kat umah.. ms malam raya.. Dugaan besar sungguh tahun ni..

Utk ma n abah.. Insyaallah.. kc akan balik next yr.. both of you wont be alone.. no more...i'll be back for good!! mintak ampun dan maaf dri kc lahir sampai sekarang!!! I love you both!! you mean the world to me..

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

.: Jawap aje la..:.

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any 1 questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.-I'll try!!

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by and continue this game by sending it to other people.-Xpenah tag org!!

Tagged by Aimi Razlan

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
- stunned!! definitely i'll cry out loud but after cleaning whole things!! Just want to get out my anger.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- For now, finish my MSc and fly back to Malaysia ASAP!!

3. If you are the opposite gender, what would you do?
- Trim rambut cantik2 , then pkai gel , buat rambut cacak cacak!! ( macam teringin je!! LOL )

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
- an ultimate dream car ( New Bettle) and a piece of land in NZ.

5. Will you fall in love with your bestfriend?
- yes, why not?

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- loving someone... I dont care he love me back or not, coz, when i like someone, he is my inspiration. silience love if fun!!being loved is of course is a bless but, its hard .. especially when he said he loves me, and then go away..

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- till death take my breath ( of course la.. kalu x,, xde la kate LOVE. it is a small word.. but it comes with hugh meaning)

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- pray for his happiness. yes, that's all i can do. loser ke?---- same ngan aimi. i'm not a loser definitely!!

9. Have u ever been labeled as a snatcher?
- no. i dont think so.--- same

10. What takes you down the fastest?
- lost my best friends!!

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
i)finished my PhD

ii) married with my HIM and having kids

iii) have my own business ( paper n stationery shop & spa)

iv) conquer all Europe and UK countries.

v) a piece of land and a dream house.

* thats all for myself .. jgn lain belakang cite,,


12. What do you really want at the moment of responding to this tag?
- i wnat to know who did all these Q ( what an imagination!!)

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
- Aimi Razlan,,, Che mek molek dari Kelate.. cun melecun... tak tipu ok.. tinggi dari saya.. setakat ni xde yg negative.. bukan ape,, xdela nk kate kami ni rapat bebenor.. so xpelu la nak judge org kan.. heheh.. all i know.. I LOVE YOU AIMI :)

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- married but poor. as long as i'm with you.. no matter what!!

15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
- tarik duvet,, and mybe on heater!! huhu

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
- kalu blum kawin.. blum la .. aiyo.. itu pun mau tanya ka?

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- person who loves me more!! n teh most important thing is my family like him too..

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- tgk keaadaan la.. tapi try la lupekan.. buang karan je ingt lebih2..

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
-having a relationship if both care so much for each other.. thats one way to know each other better.. jodoh kan kena cari..

Aimi.. dah sudah jawap ni.. heheh..

Xpelu la tag sesape.. kalu ade org nak jwp.. ok aje.. no hurm.


Tuesday, September 16, 2008

:: Butterflies in my stomach, but I love it ::

hmmm.. today.. as usual, Tuesday, I have lab demonstrating. Demonstrating is fun despite hard questions from students. Especially me,, and of course language barrier is the main reason. It's frustrating .. if u know the answer but it;s difficult to explain to them. But after all, i'm very happy, John Steel (my Boss) he trust me out of no where, asked me last yr either I want to be a demonstrator or not. At first, I was'nt feel confident at all.

So far, I have been working as demonstrator for almost 2yrs. I feel accepted and trusted. Every single lab, I can feel butterflies in my stomach!! I'm excited but scared in the same time. You can't expect what questions ur students will ask you tho. For me, that is scary..

So, today 10th lab of BIOL 112 (Biology of Plant) on Water potential. At the end of the lab we had to stay to mark the report down. Hehe. i was tired and hungry.. You know what, it's hard. So many elements that you have to consider. Your mood at that time, handwriting and many more.

I really want to laugh, cry, scream out loud, tear the paper up, everything. Seriously, So many answers, different style and handwriting! Sometimes I wanted to be very strict, sometimes I wanted to be lenient,hahha.. You know what, its all a very good experiences for me since I'll be a teacher one day. I cherish all these precious time with my other demostrator friends and John Steel. Today, he asked me.
" Yana, are you going to demostrate for me next yr?"
" If you want me too.." I smiled
" I've put your name in my list long time ago, and plz consider to stay here!!"
heheheheh.. John,, Plz don't make me feel hard to leave botany dept as I already feel it rite now.
You can't imagine my feeling when I heard more than 5 ppls saying " I can't imagine botany dept without you, a small Asian gurl". I feel like crying.. I really am..

John & me

-My kiwi friends: Lisa, Katherine, me & Emma-
Last Year BIOL 112

p.s: will upload this year ppl later.

So yea.. that's all for today!! My demonstrating day!! I'm gonna miss them so much!! They are all stay in heart forever..

Monday, September 8, 2008

.: Pandang belakang :.

Alhamdulillah, today day 8hari pose kat NZ. Tahun ke 2 kat sini!! Kalu nak dibandingkan, pose kat sini sangat best.. Tak panas, so kurang dahaga!! hehe.. Sebenarnya, kalu diingat, tak pernah terlintas pun saya akan keluar dari Malaysia, tanah air tercinta. Sebulan pun dah susah nak percaya. ni kan plak hampir 2thn di sini. Bersyukur sgt2..

Rindu keluarga tolak tepi dulu.. banyak yang saya belajar di sini. Kalu dulu tak pernah masak .. Kat sini , saya belaja.. mencuba mcm2. Mungkin tak seenak masakan ma and even kakngah.. But atleast.. I at some point that I could say.. I've cooked this and that before!! Should be something to be proud of rite?

Di Malaysia, mmg saya belaja bahasa Inggeris.. tapi guna tak selalu.. Mungkin ade org mmg sll 'speaking' kat umah dia. Tapi tidak bagi saya. Still remember, the day I left Malaysia to come here. gementar sgt.. bukan takut barang kena curi ke, sesat ke ape ke.. tapi yang paling saya takut .. saya tak leh speaking bile ade pape.. Serious... Tu yang plg saya takut masa tu .. Mungkin sbb doa ma abh sekeluarga, saya jadi kuat.. Redah aje.. Rasanye.. paling penting kena humble .. and be brave. Jgn takut kalu bt salah.. And yang saya selalu ingatkan diri saya.. kalu salah pun xpe.. bukan kena denda ke ape..

This is quite a journey for me.. Walaupun sekarang English still kong kang kong kang.. but atleast perasaan takut tu dah hilang .. I speak with english native speaker quite alot since I stay with International student and being the only Asian in Botany Dept.. make me stronger,,,each day!! Even now, I dare to make jokes, socialize with ppl and most important thing I could say.. I improve!!

Last yr kena amik 5 paper termasukla thesis preparation. Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku.. Dia saje yang tahu.. betapa susahnya mengharungi hari2 sebagai student di sini.. Kelas di sini jauh beza dari Malaysia.. Open your mouth, speak up.. if not.. .... ZERO for participation.. Read, read and read.. broad up ur knowledge,, in my case mmg saya muntah.. baca reseach articles dan mcm2 lagi. Ppl says 'its not about quantity ,, but its about QUALITY' .. Hurrmm.. how should I put this... it requires both... The more you read, more knowledge.. n of course high quality all along... Tu belum lagi presentation!! Internal assessment!! EXAM!! Sgt2 menakutkan..

Last yr, my aim mmg nak lulus je.. cukupla.. Eventually, Allah blessed me again.. I was shocked.. I didnt see my result online. Didnt have any guts to see it. But when I received the result.. I lost my voice, rs sejuk sgt2.. kaki mmg menggigil...seriously.. only tears!!! I managed to get 1A, 2A- and 2B+. A for thesis preparation? Oh my God!! Not in million yrs I could possibly imagine in my entire life... I wonder it is just sympathy? And I wasn't a freaking smart student when I was in school b4. Trust me.. I was surprised when 2 kiwi friends showed me their exam results. They got below me? Are you for real? Sharing this with you guys isn't that I wanted to show off. Plz don't get me wrong. Just wanted to share my moment of happiness in my study. :)

Love? Not so happy I guess.. Long distance relationship is quite tough for me..Maybe thats the price I have to pay after getting good grades in studies. Allah definately knows the best!! I truly believe that. After setahun lebih,, yang saya jaga sebaik mungkin.. tak lagi mampu sy simpan.. Tapi Alhamdulillah.. ade seseorang yang mulanya teman biasa sudi menyapa hati saya. Buat masa sekarang.. saya tidak berharap lebih.. biarlah sampai abis study.. KAlu ade jodoh pasti xkemana kan.. Kami berkawan!! Harap2 berpanjangan.. Minta dipanjangkan doa dari semua!!

When it comes to health.. this could be the most worried one.. CUaca kat sini mmg condongney ke arah sll skt.. ASTHMA datang menyerang..dan batuk teruk lebih 3minggu. itu yang plg major rasanye.. tak leh saya nafi.. Tapi alhamdulillah.. dapat survive lagi skrg.. Immune system is getting better I guess!! hihi..

Hurm.. tu saje kot setakat nie... Tibe terpandang belakang.. ingatan utk diri sendiri.. utk tidak mengalah .. just a lil more left.. This battle will be done.. I'll fight to the end!! for the sake of Allah Almight who keeps pouring me with His love, Beloved ma, abah, along, kakngah and adiksue who love me endlessly with no doubt believe in me. and for caring teachers and friends who never judge me wrongly, keep wishing me all the best in life over and over again ..

P.s. Plz keep shining on me!!

Friday, September 5, 2008

.: Dia Makin Tua :.

-Pkai cermin mata hitam sbb nak bgi nampak cool skit..
tapi sbnarnye nak cover style rmbut yang xcun.LOL-

Today, 6th Sept 2008, ade sorang budak sambut hari lahir .. tahun ni dah 22 thn..
U makin tua!! yay!!

Mr. B :P
Happy Birthday..
Wish u all the best in life..
Jangan asyik tido je.. Final dah dekat...
Don't give up!!

p.s: BISU \(^o^)/

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

.: Ramadhan datang lagi : Aku, Lab & Air kosong :.

Salam ramadhan buat semua.. hari ni baru hari ke2 pose kat NZ.. lewat sehari dri Malaysia.
huhu...Sbb xde org nak umum bile pose kat sini, mmg tertunggu2 sgt..
kul 10 kot baru dapat msg pose ari selasa..

Then 1hb Sept malam tu.. saya berkesempatan solat Terawikh...
8rakaat kat sini.. mmg menggugat kesabaran gak tau.. panjang sgt..
tapi sbb cuaca yang ok... xberpeluh mcm kat Msia..
rasa relax je solat Terawikh..

2nd Sept.. mula lah .. ari 1st pose.. huhu.. nikmatnye arini.. aritu baru cakap ,,
rindu nak berpeluh mcm kat Msia. Kemarin the whole day panas..
Tapi xla seterik kat Msia.. suam2 kuku je.. heheh..

Ari Selasa, as usual ade Lab demonstrating (BIOL 113).. start kul 1.30 ..
abis xtentu.. arini abis kul 4.45pm.. mcm biasa soalat dlm lab..
dari dulu lagi budak2 dlm lab akan pelik tgk saya solat kat sudut lab.
konon2 plan nak gi bukak pose kat masjid.. FOC.. hehe..
tapi ade 1 prob la plak..

Careless sungguh minggu ni.. lupe tgk jadual..
Malamnye kena invigilate midterm test.. aduiiiii..

buka pose 6.16pm... kena ada kat dept kul 6.30..
tersilap timing plak buat keje kat lab sendiri..

6.20 baru turun pg dept..
akibatnye.. juadah berbuka pose ari pertama saya di sini..
AIR KOSONG aje... solat pun kat Lab..

The whole day,, berdiri hampir 7 jam.. kaki mmg skt yang amat sgt, ketar kepala lutut...
kena gagahkan jugak sbb tugas.. Malam tu balik.. settle2 ape yang patut..
mmg terus tertido.. Alhamdulillah la..
sbb hp btul2 kat telinga.. bunyi text masuk.. terjaga jap..
be2 xleh tido lak..

amikla pluang tu solat terawikh..

Penat sgt2 kot.. smpai tertido dgn kain sembahyang atas sejadah..
hurm.. apela nasib ramadhan kali ni.. mcm same je ngn thn lepas..
balik2 berbuka kat lab.. sedihnye.. tapi takpe.. dugaan kan?

i'll be strong as i promise myself to be stronger and stronger each day..
for the sake of my graduation on time and going back soon...
gambate yana!!!