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Tuesday, December 16, 2008

:: what makes me iS me ::

I've been tagged by Chuck
* sorry Chuck.. amik lama skit nk buat bende ni :D*

List these rules on your blog.
* Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog.
* Tell 7 unspectacular quirks on yours.
* Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
* Link the person who tagged you.
* Leave a comment for each blogger.

Hohoho.. Btw, I'm still thinking actually.. what should I write..

ok.. let's start
*sorry this is a long entry , so pls fasten ur seat belt*
1Q- 7 facts about myself which ppl might not know yet(hihih)

me & face blindness
this is the ultimate secret of my life. I keep thinking whether I should share it or not. I've never been diagnosed by any medical doctors or who ever expert about this. but since I was a lil kid, I have a difficulties to recognize some ppl's face especially GUY'S face. A friend of mine, Salleh claimed that is a curse which is I'm very unfortunate to have that. he said "U have been cursed for not able to see a handsome guy like me" LOL
It's a long story if I want to tell. I never know that such thing exist in this world until Mr B told me. ANd please don't ask me how do you guys look like in front of me.. I might scare you alot.. hehe.. also .. it's only happened to certain ppl. not all ..
as a result, ppl would say I'm very serious and not so friendly. Especially when I was in a huge group. It's hard for me to really know each one infront of me. Eventually, i trained my brain very hard just to recognize ppl I talk with. In some ways, I look very serious and not interested to talk or join anything.. But i tried very2 hard and harder.. just to make sure I wasn't out of the group!
So ppl, don't be shock ok? and please do not angry if i didn't or don't say Hi if i meet you somewhere!!

me & animal
List me all animals in the world.. and I don't think I like any of them. Seriously!! or maybe animal just don't like me.. heheh .. Not that I didn't try, but I just can't. Sometimes, it is very weird for me to hear ppl say,
" OMG that pupppy or cat is sooo cute".. hohoho.. Sorry but I don't and I cant see what u've seen. I'm very scared looking at animal's face. kind of their face telling me "yana, I want to eat you rite away,,hahahahah" eiiiiiiiiii I just can't..
so please, keep your lovely pets away from me. I have no choice other than smacking them off from me.. But I try not to :P

me & sickness
OMG this is also one of the worst thing worst for me (maybe at the time when I'm sick).. anyway, who likes it rite.. But I guess, I was the only one in my family who always get sick. Arghhh!! the one I hate most is FLU@ cold@ running nose. . i don't need to explain I guess!! I was diagnosed for Tyroxicocis since I was 14yrs old. Only God knows how sad i was. Every week I had to go hospital and coming back with lots of pills ( the bittest of all medicines ( I claimed that)). Ppl don't really understand why I was behaving like that.. being very lazy, sweating like hell ( which course me a very strong body odour), and so on..
another two major illness I'm having rite now are asthma and migraine!! The rest, i'll keep that secretly in my long list.
But I guess, all these suffering stuffs make me stronger each days and I realize how much my family and ppl around care about me

Thanx to all with all my heart :)

me & feminism( or maybe wrong term or word)
hehehe.. It was long ago, I really want to talk about this..
What is feminism ? How to be gurly?
Since I was school kid and until now, many ppl will say "yana, u walk like a guy!" LOL
Honestly, I'm very impress with most gurls who really like grooming or at least making an effort to be like one. Me as always "hurm.. no point.. no one will look at me!!" that statement is always in my mind. I seriously, don't know how to do that, I dont have accesories( fancy belt, all those blink blink..), I don't know how to belit2 tudung and wat so ever..
hehe.. I try la sometimes. and mostly, I feel very feminim when I wear baju kurung or kebaya.And wearing high heel but only in certain occasion. the rest simple and lazy my, tshirt, jeans@khakis, sandal@jandal and tudung. That's it.
and you know what, "If I'm wearing or putting on something with pink in color, I would feel guys or anyone will see me as a very WEAK person!" so that is why, no pink for me.. ( but now, i have 4pink tops; 3 were given by friends)
hahahahahah ( big laugh for myself) .. I'm soooo KUNO :D

me & blood
I don't like or I hate blood. and I'm scared of blood. Please, I bag you guys.. do not try to play jokes or wat so ever with me!!

me & chinese look guy
hehe.. I was once have a dream to be a gf of a chinese look guy. Fair skin, mata sepet but not very sepet, look a bit nerdy ( skema) , not very tall, sweet smile, with a smart short hair. hahahah
But after all, HAMPEHHH.. no one ever exist for me!! not even close.. Forget it Yana..

to a guy name IHSAN, I'm over you long time ago. but still u r .... ( I'm not gonna say it.. hihih) LOL
What a dream rite? and I believe every ppl does..

me & sky
I love looking at the SKY so much. I don't know why. and I don't even remember thinking about anything when I was looking to that lovely ALLAH's creation. It's awesome. .. Maybe I wonder, what's up there or maybe hoping to touch and be there for once. It's so calming.. ( I suggest that to everyone, U'll enjoy it!)

Ok.. 1st part is done!!
2Q- 7 unspectacular quirks on me .. huhu..

-I just can't handle the darkness - I feel like a hugh stone on my feet which make me stunned. But I become a sleeping beauty when I sleep in the dark!! so pls.. light off ya!!

-I collect rubbish - my mum knows me so well. When I was in school I used to collect eclair ( gold&purple) wrapper. All my classmates will gave it to me.. and ya. so many things until now. at the end, i dont know what to do with all those stuff. Nak buang sayang!! hehe

-Sleep with kaki lipat2 - hehe.. I have no idea how terrible I look.. but many friends told me I look like a gymnas when I sleep..LOL.. It didn't hurt after all. Believe or not? haha

-I clean when I angry/upset - everything.. give me everyhting, i'll wash it for you and pls don't talk to me.... after that, got to cry and sleep. When I wake up, I'll be fine.. ( effective most of the time)

-I pretend to be like a super singing diva when I'm in the shower. - maybe as powerful as Celine Dion, as sweet as Connie Talbot and as sumbang as ME!! hahahah no comment :P

-Plain water vs sky juice? Hurm.. sky juice means clear water with ice rite? hahah.. I hate plain water for the rest of my life. Sorry MA.. I tried!! but it just taste yucky in my throat.. But sky juice is always number one.. Ma, please do not stop making ice in our freezer!!

-I won't get sick of JERUK or PICKLES. U name it..Mangga, betik , kelubi, anggur, everything.. I love them so much and I'm craving for it more than pregnant woman does. Trust me.. I can't wait to have that when I get back.. ( OMG, kecur airliur ku.. hanya dgn mengenangkannye, sat lagi I will google for the images. just nak bagi hilang kempunan )<---this is also become a great hobby 4 me since i've been here!!

3Q- Tag 7 ppls
huhu.. for the 1st time ever
1-Aimi ( the gurl who always tag me)
2-Dlyn Azmi(saje kacau cuti awk..)
3-Zul Ilham a.k.a Kojack ( my no more virtual pen pal)
4-Miss cheritacerithi ( Pls pls pls)
5- Dr Ezad ( wlpun tak knal, tpi tolong bt ek.. )
6-Pn Akmar ( since dh jadi house wife skrg.. mybe dia ade ms.. hehe)
7-Pn Sarah -syed's wifey ( kot2 dia nak bt)
8-who ever la.. ( ok ape.. this is a kind of exercise .. mengenali diri sendiri)

comot oh comot

Saturday, December 13, 2008

:: who is she ::

hurm.. while thinking about chucky's tag entry, as usual, i rather spend some time reading ppl's blog while listening to music. I found one blog who the owner is a girl studying medicine in Moscow. She said she is currently addicted to this song,
( she lists several songs same as below, but the song i hook the most is the first one :))


to be honest, i've never ever listen to Malaysian singing like this. If she didn't show the picture of this talented singer, i would definitely guess she's not Malaysian. ( I'm sorry, not that I'm doubting Malaysian talents, but it just very hard for me to believe)..

I'm very impress with her voice.. WOW!!! Way to go gurl... I hope she stays the way she is..

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

:: I am a BiG fan, but.....::

Being far away from home, make me a lil behind with all updates and anything happens in Malaysia. N yes.. I could say, I'm a bit lost.. hihi.. and not to be mentioned la kan.. I mmg malas baca newspaper or berita2 online ni..

I didn't know when this is happening.. but while I was browsing people's blog, I found this

O.M.G ... are you for real? Datuk SRK? oh come on man.. this is too much.. I'm sorry Shah Rukh..I am a big fan of yours, but this is definitely too much. What is the point giving him a Datuk? Can someone tells me ?

Not that I'm jealous wat so ever.. but after I knew about this, I was disapointed.. If having a Datuk is so easy .. why not Gov give this title to all Malaysians who finished their studies in overseas.. Living overseas is not easy man.. we are all study so hard, behaved as good as we can just because we really love Malaysia.Nak jaga nama agama, bangsa dan negara!! After years of hardship, so many Malaysians received international awards from their studies.. And of course, tak de sape yang amik tau kan?

Ni la yang dikatakan, "kera di hutan disusukan,anak di rumah mati kelaparan" am I right?

teruk kan? hurm.. ape la lagi yang boleh dikatekan.. setakat boleh luah aje kat sini.. But I really hope a small honest writing like this could bring at least a lil change in future..

Congrats Syai, Timi, Nuzul and Hanis and also Mariam (not in the pic) for your graduation!!
Tumpang bangga and gembira utk korang !! :)

comot yang emo dengan berita SRK!!
Tuesday, December 2, 2008

:: rambut oh rambut ::

*gambar hiasan semata-mata. tiada kena mengena langsung* ^_*

hihihii.. after long time.. tengok sana sini.. google sana sini.. tengok mana style rambut yang lawa and cun.. saya akhirnye potong juge rambut ni.. Rasenye keinginan ini timbul sebab banyak sangat tengok American's next top model kot.. hahahahah.. what can I say.. sume orang pun ade keinginan.. and for sure sume org nak cantik n hensem.. rite?

Lat year, masa datang sini.. before start pegi fieldtrip. I cut my own hair.. hhohoh.. pendek gile.. n xde style langsung.. So after a year. dah panjang la kan.. I want a wild cut!! not a descent style anymore.. Ye,, saya tau .. xde gune.. sebab pkai tudung.. xde sape nak tengok pun.. hohhoh. You're wrong babe!! This is what we called self-satisfaction. Puas gile.. I look younger and most important.. I feel younger as always.. With agy hairstyle!! hahaha... thanx Tyra!!! ( xleh blah kan..)

* sorry no picture this time... I don't have any intention to show to whole world*

just nak share how happy I am with my hair cut now after cutting 30cm rambut yang di jaga dgn penuh kasih sayang selama setahun... hehehe good bye my hair... sorry, but i have to get rip most of you from my head!!! and one more thing, I don't need hair band anymore.. yay!!!

comot with new hair style
Tuesday, November 25, 2008

:: permata hati ::

Ni dia.. permata hati yang kami tunggu2.. akhirnye.. my beloved new born niece dapat balik..
yang ni muka bujur kan.. btw..yang sister..

dapat ke dibezakan?sorang muka bujur, sorang bulat..
nama dorang heleena felisa & heleeza farisa
(to be honest.. saya tak pasti yang mana 1)

yang pasti.. si kakak namanya hardreena farhana
sukanya kakak bergambar dgn her twin sisters
(i can't wait to go home.. seriously)..

che cik

:: bile ati bengak ::

sejak 2 menjak ni ,, i feel sad..very sad,, xtau nk cite kat sape.. n kalu cite pun .. mybe org akan cakap.. biarla .. dh hobby dia.. but for me.. i doesn't make sense... seriously .. its too much.. i pendam je dlm ati,, smpai blh rs .. ati ni bengkak.. nak nangis.. sedih gile..

ape yang istimewa sgt dgn game tu.. kenapa main smpai mcm tu sekali? i pun malas gak nk bt ape2.. tapi tak la smpai cmtu sekali.. smpai xde rs nak bt ape2.. ye.. btul.. baru abis exam.. nnti dh start kelas xleh main.. yeke? komik pun blh baca time nak exam.. xtau nk bt ape.. i seriously cannot take it..

smpai ke kepala.. but this time.. biarla i membebel kat sini je,.. dia nk bt ape pun bt la.. i dont care anymore.. skt ati pun bukan org lain tau .. tgk smpai mana i blh tahan with all these stupid things.. i hate ppl who created all these things.. mmg la sbb one thing , i xreti nk main... tapi mmg xhingin pun main.. bgi sejuta pun xnk.. wat ever happened..

xsangka .. ade org sanggup ngadap bende tu smpai bilik xkemas.. lepas makan tinggal je.. orang hulur makanan pun blh suruh letakkan kat atas meja sbb xleh nk lepas kan sekejap sgt bnde tu.. O M G.. i seriously i cannot take it.. i tgh sabar... seriusly sabar.. i xnk membebel lagi dh .. biar je.. i mean it this time...

i try to accept hobby org yang macam ni.. tapi mmg xleh.. xkisah la nak main pun.. tapi biarla yang lain tu terjaga dgn eloknye.. "u ni cerewet sgtla"...ye sy tau sy cerewet... n very fussy... suka membebel.. ape lgi .. u name it.. but atleast i nk make sure everything is fine.. n back to order.. make sure tempat tinggal kemas.. ruang keje kemas n teratur..

hurm.. ntah la... mybe sume salah i la kot.. i dh xtau lagi nk bt cmne n ape.. lepas ni , i xkisah dh la.. ape nk jdi pun.. i need advise.. i xnk la halang hobby org as ppl dont care about mine.. but this could really affected my relationship.. ingat i suka sgtke nk membebel sesuka ati.. ingat xpnat ke.. i hate writing all these... tapi kalu xtulis kat sini.. mmg ati i skt gile.. i xnk blame other ppl.. n i know main tu sume xsalah.. nak main smpai mati pun xsalah.. but pls.. berpada - pada la..

so.. am I right? or I'm wrong again? maybe xde org blh bayang kan how I really feel now.. I think i need to be like b4. be independent!! xharapkan org lain too much.. wat everla.. i pen off skrg!!! i cume nak lepas kan ape yang i rs je kat sini...


Sunday, November 23, 2008

:: doa dalam hati ::

Kalau hati ini punya sepasang mata
Aku pasti ia hanya akan memandang diri kamu
Tenung tepat ke mata hatimu

Dan jika hati ini punya telinga
Sepasang telinga ini tidakkan jemu mendengarkan
Setiap bait-bait perkataan dari bibirmu

Jikalau hati ini memiliki hidung
Ia takkan pernah puas mencium bau harummu
Takkan sesak nafas ini

Dan kalaulah hati ini punya mulut
Aku berjanji ia hanya mengucapkan rindu padamu
Mengalunkan lagu cinta paling indah
Mengukir senyuman semanis madu
Tanpa pernah jemu

Walau hati ini buta
Hati ini pekak dan bisu sekalipun
Aku yakin cinta akan memanduku
Dan setiap langkah ini
Tertuju hanya kearah mu
Dekat pada mu

P.s: Ketika mata tidak terlelap, hidung penuh sesak dan telinga terasa bingit.
Hati mula menyulam doa

Saturday, November 22, 2008

:: Saya di tag oleh Aimi ::

Adui.. saya di tag lagi.. Seperti usual, tiap kali di tag, saya tertanya2, sape la punye idea .. mcm2 ek manusia ni. but i guess, tag entry ni akan buatkan blogger keeps blogging.. isn't it? ok, this is my turn..

The rules:

* Take a recent photo of yourself OR take a picture of yourself RIGHT NOW.

* DON'T change your cloth. DON'T fix your hair, just take a picture.

* Post that picture with NO editing.

* Post this instruction with your picture.

* Tag 10 people to do this.

ta daaa.. ini la hasilnye.. sy mmg teangah pkai tudung sekarang.. so tak de ape nk buat b4 amik gmaba.. just turn on my camera n click.. this is it.. no make-up, no editing.. nothing...just plain ME!

I'm sorry, I don't like to tag others, I don't why.. or maybe I should this time... hurmmm..
NO!! heheh.. sape2 yang nak di buta, n tunjuk diri sendiri.. dipersilakan... :D

P.s: I'm 25yrs old already.. huhu,, a.k.a young @heart!! :)



Thursday, November 13, 2008

:: what a talent ::

hurm.. it's quite long time i haven't update my sweetie here.. hehe.. n of course, i guess most of ppl in this world i guess have 1 same hobby which i don't know it's either good or not. LOL... the 1 that i meant is browsing videos in the YOUTUBE.. am i right? i think most ppl will agree with me.. n same goes to me..

last year i was mesmerize by these 2 singer from a reality tv show called "Britain's got talent" .. i honestly prefer the britain's version rather than american's. It is just a personal opinion.. no hurt feeling ok?

straight to the point .. just watch these video..

seriously.. i was stunned.. listening to both of them.. n this year there were more talented ppl in that show.. these are my favorite so far.. (might not finished browsing yet!! hahah)

oh ya.. to be honest..i'm not a big fan of opera song.. but,listening to them singing, make me fell goose bump everywhere on my body.. and tears start pouring.. i dont know.. i just wonder, 'what a talent God could give to human being'. n most of them are 6-13 yrs old.. gosh.. can't you believe it? but ya.. enjoy the videos ya!!
my fav still connie talbot.. she is just amazing n of course sooo sweet.. the rest thumbs up..

i guess all of us must keep up the best talent we think we had.. not only singing.. but everything.. hurm.. i wonder what is my ultimate talent? :D

P.s: sorry aimi.. no video from ur fav George.. and pls do not browsinf to much.. u might wasting ur precious time.. ( also goes to me!! )

pen off~~

Friday, November 7, 2008

:: J u S t 4 Y o U ::

oh my God.. look what i've found... connie talbot singing this song.. it's lovely!!
this is also for my beloved family and friends
whereever you are..


:: sweetheart ::

Mood macam hampeh.. turun naik.. xtau kenapa.. dahala malam2 hidung tersumbat a.k.a block nose.. aduh.. dh 2 mlm tido menyandar.. tapi xpe2 .. last nite, kakngah sent me couple of emeils, which contained pictures.. i've been waiting for this....

kakak a.k.a eldest sister of the twin said, she looks like tok (ma). Is she? hurm.. cari punye cari .. jumpe gmba ma.. i think her nose is identical like ma.. hihi

hurmm ade ke? ye kot.. maybe gamba ni xclear sgt.. tapi rsnye mmg ade ade iras2 ma.. belek2 gamba tadi jumpe this one.. when kakak was small.. not even 1yr if i'm not mistaken...

hahah.. muka kakak was a bit bulat kot banding ngan twin... but now.. i think is more like her papa..(sorry kakngah)
oh ya.. congrats kakak for winning the 1st prize in colouring contest.. dapat jam tangan limited edition walt disney. huhu.. tengok dlm above photo.. she and her pencil colour pack.. adeksue, cakap mmg dia sgt suka colour2 ni.. hurmmm on nov 24th, kakak will turn 4 yrs old.. cik cik tgh pk.. ape nak bagi kat kakak ni..

oh ya.. i told u .. i got twin nieces kan? the other one is still in ICU .. she is smaller than this lil girl.. only 1.5 kg.. fighting!!! everyone is waiting for you my dear!!!

kakcik @ cik cik
Wednesday, November 5, 2008

:: summer or winter ::

Dunedin on Dunedin.. What should I expect from u? NZ is one of the 4 seasons country.. huhu.. Really? i dont think so.. heheh.. Yesterday was a bit shocking for me.. I didn't expect weather would be that creepy.. Super duper cold.. It was almost like Autum/Winter..

Strong wind might be a normal scene in here. but yesterday.. i felt different.. colder n stronger wind compare to normal? Plus, It was snowing up to the hill, I could see whwn I was walking on the road, Slightly whitish layer covering the hill.. Shocking rite? And sleet and hail were pouring!! I have to say, I forgot how does the rain in Malaysia feels like.. heheh.. I try to remember not that I not.. hah.. But here it is icy cold.. huhu.. What a day in Dunedin..

Am I into fashion? Lucky, I'm not.. It is a bit weird for me if I heard ppl say..
"I need to buy summer clothes since it's summer now"
Even during sunny day.. I could see most ppl here wearing buble jacket, long n thick jacket and even pashmina covering a neck. Since I was the only one wearing hijab/ tudung in my department, so many ppl came to me and say
" U r so lucky.. having a scarf to cover yr head. U must feel warm! :D"

So ya.. like my supervisor said..
"expect the worst but hoping for the best!!"
"get ready ur jacket mate!!"

hurm... as usual.. today, at my fav spot in my room.. looking at the window.. the sun is playing hide n seek.. rain come and go.. Wind blows north and south.. or maybe east and west!! aha..
I think I miss this little boy... AfiQ.

P.s : my sistes texted me saying that one of my niece (1.9kg one,sorry no name yet) can come home today.. So happy !!


:: on request ; kegemaran saya ::

hahaha.. ini sulie punye request utk postkan resepi kat blog ni..

1- lepat pisang


-pisang yg dah masak.. tak kisah la berape pun nk letak..lagi byk lgi sodap( kalu beli pisang xabis mkn, tgk2 dh lebu/over riped, lagi sedap,paham2 ajela.. oversea ni mn ade byk jenis pisang)
(secukup rasa, nk manis lebihkan)
-kelapa parut (kat nz ni ade yang kering aje, xde hal.. blh aje digunakan,, lgi mudah kot, kalu rs xsuka rs keras, gaulkan dgn air panas skit,kasi lembut)
-tepung gandum
( pun ikut suka jugak, tapi hint yang sy blh bagi, mcm nk bt cekodok pisang, kalu keras xbest)
-baking paper

-lenyek pisang ,personally suka yang chuncky skit.. supaya rs pisang tu lebih skit.
-then masuk gula, kelapa parut n tepung
-kacau kan la.. last sekali masuk air.. -potong baking paper and then masukkn adunan tu .. lipat mcm bungkus nasi lemak 50sen..
-pastu kukus dlm pengukus/ steamer ( xde pengukus? amik periuk or pan besar, didihkan air.. then masukkan lepat tu dlm bekas lain.letak dlm air mendidih tu.. the
n tutup..)
*kalu paham konsep steamer mesti xde masalah.. ape2 sahaja blh digunakan..
kukus dlm 30-40minit.. lebih kurang la..
*best gile makan time musim sejuk.. pekene teh or kopi panas.. huhu.. sedappppp..!!

2-apam balik

-2cawan tepung

-1/2 cawan gula
-1/2 camca soda bikarbonat
-1/2 camca baking powder
-1 camca kecil wrna kuning (xletak pun xpe)
-1 biji telur
-1 1/2 cawan air

-tacang tanah
(kisar halus-hint* kalu bt kuah kacang.. ade kacang lebih,, simpan.. blh digunakan, bt apam balik..hihi)
-jagung dlm tin.. (yg krim sedap kot)
-gula -sedikit mentega

1-pukul telur n gula smpai kembang. and then masukkn gandum, soda bikarbonat, baking powder , air ( hint* kadar kepekatan mcm buat roti jala la lebih kurang.. xcair sgt,,n xpekat sgt) 2-ape lagi.. panaskan pan (yang xmelekat) api sederhana.. cairkan mentega sikit..
3-then layarkan adunan tadi.. jgn tebal sgt.. nnti terlampau tebal.. xsedap sgt
4-taburla bende2 alah tu.. jagung, kacang n gula... ikut citarasa sendiri nk byk mana pun.. 5-angkatla kalu kulit tu dh msk.. kat bawah tu jadi brownish ...b4 angkat, lipat 2.. ala.. mcm org jual apam balik..
6-potongkan... huhu.. siap dah apam balik..

3-flourless cheesecake

*sumber mesra.net

- 250g bread crumb

- 125g butter
- 2 sudu besar gula
- setengah sudu kecil serbuk kayu manis
*tapi sy skip cinnamon powder sbb xsuka, n sy xpenah ikut sukatan tu.. main ikut suka aje.. agak2 la dgn baking pan yang kita nk guna tu.. n ikut citarasa la
nak tebal ke nipis.. xde hal..

- 3 250g cream cheese

- 1 cawan gula
- 5 biji telur
- satu setengah sudu kecil vanila
*kalu ikut pan saya.. 500g cream cheese pun dh cukup.. (rujuk gmba), kalu telur size besar, 3-4 bijik pun dh cukup. gula pun.. kalu suka manis.. blh tmbah..

- 3 cawan sour cream
- setengah cawan gula
- satu setengah sudu kecil vanila
*alkisahnye,, sy bukanla peminat cheese yg amat2.. so byk kali sy skip topping.. pun ok aje.. sgt sbb.. bakar lama skit.. smpai nmpak kuning..ni lah hasinye.. (not too cheesy, i prefer this one personally)

-lembutkan butter dan campurkan ke bread crumb. Gaul rata.
- Masukkan gula dan serbuk kayu manis.Gaul Rata
- Letakkan bahan crust ke seluruh bahagian tray ( dasar dan tepi )
- Boleh mula panaskan oven di 150 darjah Celcius.

- Lembutkan cream cheese sehingga cukup lembut (suhu bilik, tapi jgn terlalu lama.. nnti berair. sy suggest kalu nk bt baru beli..guna ynag fresh) untuk digaulkan dengan mixer.
- Guna mixer untuk gaul cream cheese sehingga lembut.(kasi kembang)
- Masukkan gula dan gaul.
- Campur telur sebiji demi sebiji dengan mixer dalam kelajuan sederhana.
- Tambahkan vanila.
- Letakkan ke atas crust.
- Masukkan ke dalam oven selama 50 minit.

- Pukul sour cream sehingga fluffy.
- Campur gula dan vanila dan pukul sehingga sebati, putih dan licin (tiada lagi rasa kasar gula pada jari)
- Apabila filling sudah dibakar selama 50 minit, letak topping di atas filling dan masukkan ke dalam oven selama 5 minit dengan suhu yg sama.

Keluarkan cheesecake dari oven dan biarkan sehingga sejuk. Masukkan ke dalam peti ais sekurang-kurangnya 1 jam setengah.

* kalu yang tanpa topping... tunggu sejuk pun dh cukup.. terus blh mkn.. hiasan atas kek.. ape2 saje blh.. ikut citarasa sendiri.. hihi

selamat mencuba terutama kepada sulie (dah cube amik gmba.. post kat blog ok.. )


Tuesday, November 4, 2008

:: kesukaan saya ::

setelah sekian lama teringin nak mkn.. nk mkn kat sini xleh.. sbb ade alkohol..
taaa daaa.. ini la hasilnye..

*cheese cake*
ini plak cheese cake utk tammy (4 her 21st bday)
huhu.. saya sgt gumbira.. sbb ini yg plg menjadi.. huhu

*apam balik*
saya mmg suka mkn kuih la.. kalu kat trganu.. senang je.pg je kat ngadang kor tu.. tunjung aje ape nak mkn.. sume ade..
saya teringin makan apam balik.. so.. ini dia..

*tart telur*
ini mmg fav of all time..
n yang ni yang plg improve.. heheh

*lepat pisang*
jeng jeng jeng.. tengok ape yg saya mengidam.
lepat pisang yang saya eksperimenkan guna baking paper,,
kalu bt laporan.. bahagian result sgt positif..

*creme puff*
ini xmenjadi.. tapi blhla.. crustnye tidak tip top...
i put lots of effort tho.. blhla setakat mkn sorang..
xtau bile nak try lagi..

so.. nilah antara kegemaran saye sepanjang di sini.. baking.. n saya suka mkn kuih muih... wlpun kena byk sabar.. tapi okla.. dpt gak mkn n jamu2 org kan... xla teruk sgt skil didapur.. tapi msak still byk lagi kena belajar.. lauk pauk Melayu ni susah skit.. huhu.. ni rsnye my 2nd update kot utk hasil tangan saya ni.. last time xingt.. awl2 entry kot.. happy sungguh bile tgk ape kite bt ni menjadi..
"kdg2, rupa pun penting gak,LOL"

yana yang comot!!
Monday, November 3, 2008

:: ayat - ayat cinta dari kacamata comot ::

mungkin rmai yang dh tgk movie ayat-ayat cinta. i watched it too, long time ago... 4 sure cerita tu lain dri lain.. or maybe sy xpenah tgk cite cmtu.. cerita tu membuatkan saya kagum!!
1-kagum pada set penggambaran
2-kagum pada barisan para pelakon
3-kagum pada jalan cerita

itu diantaranye la.. kalu senarai semua.. xdptla kan... sepanjang-pjg cerita ni.. saya tertanya2, ade ke lelaki mcm si fahri ni.. yang teramat lurus bendul?... mungkin ade... hensem?.. mungkin tidak pada kaca mata saya...bijak & alim sebegitu?.. sy yakin lelaki sebegini masih wujud dan saya doakan golongan sebegitu bertambah rmai..

Bercakap pasal hero.. tidak lengkap jika tiada heroin.. Masya_Allah...Aisya dan Maria.. mcm terkedu.. Terasa begitu hina diri saya. Cantiknye mereka... dan indah pula budi pekerti.. belum lagi cakap pasal soal pengorbanan seorang wanita mempertahan cinta mereka pada insan tercinta kerana Illahi.. Watak Maria mengingatkan pada seseorang.. yang saya kenal hanya selama 6 jam pejalanan menaiki ke Christchurch. Wanita Dutch yang duduk disebelah saya dlm bas.. Saya hanya mampu telan air liur bile dia membaca buku 'Islam my life' .. kami tidak bercakap sgt la.. tapi mendengarkan dia membaca ayat-ayat sucu al_quran membuatkan saya sgt terkejut.. bile ditanya.. Dia seorang Kristian. Wow..

Aisya... wataknye membuatkan sy tetanya2.. mampukah saya berkorban sebegitu sekali? Mungkin tidak, mungkin ye..sanggupke saya berkongsi kasih dgn orang yg saya cintai? semangatnye, kemahuannye dan cintanya sgt tinggi. tidak tercapai akal saya memikirkannye..

"Antara cinta dan keinginan untuk memiliki adalah tidak sama."

ini yang disebut oleh Maria.. rmai yang bersetuju dan rmai juga yang tidak bersetuju..
1-kalu tiada cinta masakan kite ingin memiliki
2-saya cintakan si dia, tapi cukup sekadar cinta, tapi tidak rasa utk memilikinye
3-saya teringin memiliki si dia, tapi saya tidak mencintai dia..

dlm cerita ni, perkahwinan digambarkan dgn amat simple..
terpikir jugak, ade ke org kawin mcm ni skrg terutama sekali masyarakat melayu..
Beruntungnye si Fahri tu...heheh

keseluruhannye.. cerita ini sgt menarik bagi saya..mungkin sukar utk dikupas mksud cinta itu sendiri, tapi saya pasti itu salah satu kisah cinta yang mungkin berlaku pada individu tertentu.
Melihatkan dari Aisya dan Maria,
cinta membuatkan mereka kuat,
mereka ingin berkorban,
membuatkan mereka bahagia dan derita,
cinta juga membuatkan mereka rela,
berusaha tanpa kenal lelah dan jemu,
dan pasrah pada ketentuan Illahi

Mungkin ini yang dikata kan..
Cinta yang agung hanya pada Illahi.

Sebenarnye, sya tergerak menulis entry ini selepas membaca byk review2 yang di tulis oleh blogger. ada 2 yang menarik perhatian saya:
1-the pretender
2-zul ilham

cukupla kot setakat ni .. ini semua ape yang terlintas difikiran saya.. dah lama sebenarnye,, tapi sekarang baru tergerak utk menulis..
akhir kalam..
semoga cinta yang kite pertaruhkan, membuatkan kite lebih kuat!!

Sunday, November 2, 2008

:: exam dia sudah bermula ::

orang lain dh abis exam, tapi budak ni baru nk start
selamat maju jaya buat semua 3rd yr medical student
otago univ.

bile tgk gamba ni, nampak dia sgt tekun study.. mybe i should take photos of him while he's reading online comic, playing psp n watching anime or drama..
lagi tekun dari study kot..

but overall, i know he's very dedicated when he spent his time for his academic stuff.
a bit more serious.. hehe

i might not be the best person to tell you about him
but as far as I know, he is a guy who can be matured at sometimes or mybe he acts like one.
i believe he is matured by nature :)
one thing about him is ,, he is a bit sengal. sometimes ..
in my words, he doesn't know how to express his feeling.
he rather choose to keep quiet or worse,,, he acts very sengal like this photo ( below )

hurmmm... ni la gaya org over stress or mybe ade urat dlm kepala otak putus..
A many appologize to Hani. Abaikan sahaja dia ni..

I wish you all the best. Gambate!!

ur comot
Thursday, October 30, 2008

.: welcome to the family :.

29th October 2008..
Me and my entire family were celebrating with full of
Of course, waiting is such a pain,
Even my sis in Ireland and me here felt more than others,
Coz both of us only could wait any news from our family members in Malaysia.
To be honest, I could'nt sleep well on that nite.
I was praying so hard, hoping that 3 of them will be fine.
Yes, my sis just giving birth to twin gurls...
For the first time in our family..
But they were born pre-mature 8.5months,
1st gurl was 1.5kg and 2nd gurl 1.9kg,
I close my eyes, just wanted to imagine how small they could be,

Kakak will be excited too I guess!!
Cik cik always love you princess :)

Kakngah & a.Fahmi,
Congrates, From far, I am soooo happy to hear that.

To cik cik's tiny lil twins,
Be strong!!
I hope that both of you will be discharged from Special Unit Care soon..
Cik cik haven't see both of you yet,
But I knew I love you both!
Same as I love kakak dearly..

I'm eagerly waiting for photos..
Will update soon!!

Sunday, October 26, 2008

.: Sun, yet doesn't shine on me :.

sekali lagi, sy diuji. dilanda masalah kesihatan. xtau la nk ckp cmne.. sedih hati ni, xde sape yang tau. first n foremost, i would like to thank you to all ppl who help me to go through these tough moment with me. carried me all around. every single soothing word make me stronger nad stronger each day.

headache or migraine or watever u called it!! it happened for quite sometimes.especially on my right forehead. it is worse, coz my right eye become blurred and sometimes turn black. scary right? sekian lama, saya buat dek aje.. sejak akhir2 ni, sy rs xsedap badan, malam2 shiver yg sgt teruk wlpun heater kat sebelah. so dipendekkan cite,

thursday, saya pg student health, buat appoinment, so dptla jumpa Gp kul 2.15pm. so GP refer my case kat eye department, Dunedin Hosp. I went there with Mr. B. I couldn't help myself. i was scared and sad. sampai je kat sane, bagi surat yg Gp bagi, receptionist tu bgitau abis sessi ni kena byr nzd168.75. O. m G.. mmg sy xnk bt pun masa tu. sbb poket kering. n xsure insuran cover ke tak. but Mr B insist nk saya buat jugak. so sy pun stay la tunggu giliran. xla ramai sgt on that time , dh pkul 4 lebih msa tu. when it came to my turn, Dr Anne- Marie was the one who hold my case. maca2 test buat. eye sigt mapping, eye pressure checking, n so on la.. dia pggil kwn dia untuk dptkan second opinion. Body temp was 37.7'C.

Lucky, both of them were very nice. Both macam buntu gak, cos mata sume ok. so at 1st dorang suspect sinusitis. and after disscused with each other, they both agree to call their consultant. so, Dr Anne came to me again. at 1st saya ms sorang2. (dari dulu mmg saya malu if org tau sy sakit, i dont know why) but after heard so many scary things from both docs, i asked Mr B masuk. I believed he would understand better than me as he is a medical student.

So .... Dr Anne-Marie suggested me to do CT scan. nak check sinus and they nerves behind my eyes. I could see she was trying hard to explain as good as she can , so that I didn't get shocked with all scary medical term. at that time, i felt like I was in one of Dr House series. Listening to ppl, saying CT scan, MRI , nerves, something in brain, was scary. Scared to death!!! she did tell me that I did the right thing by coming and see the doctors. She actually wanted me to be admitted to the hospital as she saw me looking bad n very crook. but I told her, I did'nt want. I was very sure that I can handle this. so she arranged the CT scan for me the next day.

I was lucky, Salleh's mum is here, and she is everyone's mum here in Dunedin. She voluntereed herself to accompany me to the hospital instead of Mr B alone. Thank you makcik for being me the whole time. Teman kan saya pg amik darah pagi2 tu. Oh ya, did I mention that her cook is superb and always get ready a breakfast for me. i think twice kot. Thank you again makcik.

So after waiting for quite half an hour, I went to radiology Dept at 1st floor, xtau nk rs ape. rs mcm jasad je yang bergerak. tapi yg lain mcm dh mati. takut sgt. nak nangis pun mcm xde pape. sape tak scary. nk kena screening kepala otak. kang tetibe ade pape yg tak kena,,..... hmmm no comment...
mmg xde amik gamba la sepanjang proses ni.. tapi sume ni mmg segar dlm ingatan. after that, kena pg semula kat eye dept,.. i was so sad, thinking about my self yang selalu sakit, but Salleh's mum was able to make me laughed and smile although it was hard. At that moment, i think I was th only young ppl waiting to see the Doc. the rest were all old ppl. I was so depressed. seriously!! but I know, sume ni ujian kan!! so tunggu punye tunggu, dptla jumpa Dr Anne- Marrie smula, Mak salleh temankan.

Guess wat.. Ct scan result.. everything is fine. no symptom of sinus and everything. Ya Allah, lega sgt. Sakit mcm trus hilang. xde sape dpt rs sume tu. But, but and but, that didn't answer any Questions... my headache is still a mystery. So they doc said, i should finish my antibiotic for 2weeks and then come back for next check up. but, if anytime, saya skt, trus dtg hospital n she said , i need another scanning, which is MRI and kena refer neuro dpt... Gosh... i was stunned.

For now, saya berharap sgt antiobiotic tu can cure me. pls pls pls... until now, still skt lgi. but mata dh kurang blur. stakat ni jela.. my story.. i know, this time is very long rite..
But friends, thank you so much!!! for all your concerned and support!!!

p.s To Mr B,
Thank you for all your time!!
Friday, October 17, 2008

.: xoxoxoxoxo :.

mira, achik , me n aaron tintong!!
best gile ms ni..

saya tau, dh sgt lama sy tak update pape di sini, sy xtau nk tulis ape, i mean nk share ape2, byk bnde exciting sepanjang Syawal ni, tapi byk jugak gundah gulana dlm hidup sy ni setakat ni. bilik sy pun dh mcm tongkang pecah, i hardly recognised my own room. n i hate it so much. i need some change i guess. i miss my home kat Trganu, seriusly!! n umah knagh dulu. bile ingt ke sume ni, my eyes become crystal clear n it starts raining n pouring!!

From diary or calendar, ppl might say i almost finished. yup! thats true. suddently i feel empty, i don't know what i want. i dont know what i want to do after this. to be honest, i enjoy being a student. but so many times, i complained how sick i am,, studying, studying , studying.. mybe many friends feel jealous with me, sbb blh study kat oversea n so on. but u guys should know, i envy u guys more than anything. terutamanya, kwn2 yg dh settle down, .. hmm. ntahla.. susah nk cite..

mybe kepala ni terasa berat pk kan hal study n hal2 lain. smpai rs mcm hilang ingatan. rs mcm xde pape dlm otak. yang pasti cume rs nk balik. i think, the moment i enjoyed the most in my life, ms keje kat Body Shop dulu. seriuosly.. I love it, not to mentioned gaji yg ciput kan.. but i know,, money is not everything la.. as long as I'm happy, that should be enough. Not that i don't enjoy being here.. mmg enjoyla.. but too much pressure.. sometimes xtau nk share ngn sape.. nk bt ape.. nk share pun kdg2 xterluah dgn kate2. h,, dont know la.. nk stop sini dulu.. xtau dh nk kate ape..
me n mira masa training make up
miss u so much darling!!!
Monday, October 13, 2008

.: ini sulie punye idea :.

Handbag is not my thing. but kalu org bagi free, ape salahnye.. heheh.. sulie forwardkan to me.. so i pun clickla.. who knows kan ..

do visit this website--->http://www.handbagplanet.com/
wish all of us wit good luck!!

Saturday, October 11, 2008

.: finally she listened to me :.

Last year, I lived in the same room and flat but with 5other people. One of them is a gurl from Bangalore, India. Roshni Rao.

I can say that she is one of my best friend. thinking about what we've been through for a year living under the same roof, will always make me cry.. ah.. I don't want to talk about sad thing. past is past.. For me, all those episodes make oru friendship stronger each day although we live separately now and in future. I believe that way!!

She's very or super super smart!! Her English superb too .. oh ya.. did I tell you that maybe my Hindi language is better than her.. hhaha( joking) but 1 thing for sure, I watched Bollywood movies more than she does. trust me!! I don't know how I would survive studying overseas for the 1st time without her. n I think Jinjoo will agree with me.. She is our English teacher too.. I miss reading someone correcting my english without feel hurt.
P.s: thanks Rosh..

U know what , she is very good in music too. She plays guitar and she sing very well. I told me long ago to sing in front of ppl. N just now, she sent me a link, a video of her singing!! finally.. I'm very proud of you Rosh and so happy for you for everything!!

Here is video of her!! I believe this is not the first time!! I'm glad you found him. I wish you no more sad tears.. ok? ( did I tell u Rosh, I missed listen someone crying in our living room while holding the phone? lol.. joking.. )

Roshni, I love you dearly!! I'm sorry for everything ya..

Monday, September 29, 2008

.: salam lebaran dari anakanda :.

Ramadhan hampir tamat.. sedih kan.. kalu pk2 .. ikut plan.. this will be my last Ramadhan in NZ. Twice celebrating Ramadhan here. alhamdulillah.... mmg best sbnrnye.. ape taknye.. cuaca xsepanas Msia.. xla dahaga sgt.. lapar pun kurang la.. boleh selalu berbuka di masjid dgn sisters lain. Tak perlula ingt sbb xleh gi bazar Ramadhan ke, makan masakan ma ke.. it dah mmg sah la sedih kan.. maybe next yr.. kalu dipnjang kan umo.. dapat pose kat Msia.. sedih plak... sbb teringat suasana pose kat NZ.. ah.. tidakkkkk.... yang psti mmg xsbr nk balik..

So Insyaallah.. raya pun kali ke2 la kat sini.. kalu tahun lepas, saya dipertanggungjawapkan utk bt satay.. tahun pun mcm tu pada mulanye.. tapi dgn besar hati saya bagi Imran bt.. I know he can handle it.. sy datang tolong aje.. happy sgt sbnrnye!!! tanggung jawap tu sgtla besar.. bayangkanla 30kg daging.. perghhh...

Sedih sebenarnye ni.. ma n abah thun ni beraya xde sape kat umah.. kakngah sarat mengandung.. doktor xbagi balik trganu.. paln along xjadi plak.. sbb Jaja kena chicken pox..hummm.. xleh bayang la cmne.. mana la ma n abh pnah raya bedua aje..
mmg la ade sedara mara n jiran tetangga.. tapi .. every yr.. mmg ade nye kami adik beradik kat umah.. ms malam raya.. Dugaan besar sungguh tahun ni..

Utk ma n abah.. Insyaallah.. kc akan balik next yr.. both of you wont be alone.. no more...i'll be back for good!! mintak ampun dan maaf dri kc lahir sampai sekarang!!! I love you both!! you mean the world to me..

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

.: Jawap aje la..:.

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any 1 questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.-I'll try!!

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by and continue this game by sending it to other people.-Xpenah tag org!!

Tagged by Aimi Razlan

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
- stunned!! definitely i'll cry out loud but after cleaning whole things!! Just want to get out my anger.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- For now, finish my MSc and fly back to Malaysia ASAP!!

3. If you are the opposite gender, what would you do?
- Trim rambut cantik2 , then pkai gel , buat rambut cacak cacak!! ( macam teringin je!! LOL )

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
- an ultimate dream car ( New Bettle) and a piece of land in NZ.

5. Will you fall in love with your bestfriend?
- yes, why not?

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- loving someone... I dont care he love me back or not, coz, when i like someone, he is my inspiration. silience love if fun!!being loved is of course is a bless but, its hard .. especially when he said he loves me, and then go away..

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- till death take my breath ( of course la.. kalu x,, xde la kate LOVE. it is a small word.. but it comes with hugh meaning)

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- pray for his happiness. yes, that's all i can do. loser ke?---- same ngan aimi. i'm not a loser definitely!!

9. Have u ever been labeled as a snatcher?
- no. i dont think so.--- same

10. What takes you down the fastest?
- lost my best friends!!

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
i)finished my PhD

ii) married with my HIM and having kids

iii) have my own business ( paper n stationery shop & spa)

iv) conquer all Europe and UK countries.

v) a piece of land and a dream house.

* thats all for myself .. jgn lain belakang cite,,


12. What do you really want at the moment of responding to this tag?
- i wnat to know who did all these Q ( what an imagination!!)

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
- Aimi Razlan,,, Che mek molek dari Kelate.. cun melecun... tak tipu ok.. tinggi dari saya.. setakat ni xde yg negative.. bukan ape,, xdela nk kate kami ni rapat bebenor.. so xpelu la nak judge org kan.. heheh.. all i know.. I LOVE YOU AIMI :)

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- married but poor. as long as i'm with you.. no matter what!!

15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
- tarik duvet,, and mybe on heater!! huhu

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
- kalu blum kawin.. blum la .. aiyo.. itu pun mau tanya ka?

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- person who loves me more!! n teh most important thing is my family like him too..

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- tgk keaadaan la.. tapi try la lupekan.. buang karan je ingt lebih2..

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
-having a relationship if both care so much for each other.. thats one way to know each other better.. jodoh kan kena cari..

Aimi.. dah sudah jawap ni.. heheh..

Xpelu la tag sesape.. kalu ade org nak jwp.. ok aje.. no hurm.